CURATIVE HANDS 2026
My experiences with recent pain
Colon Cancer (March, 2024)
The
day
after
my
first
major
surgery,
which
involved
a
colectomy
and
colostomy
to
remove
a
section
of
my
colon,
I
walked
4,400
steps
around
the
hospital
with
my
IV
on
wheels.
As
I
walked
around,
I
noticed
that
most
other
patients
were
lying
in
their
beds
watching
TV.
The
nurses
were
surprised
that
I was refusing the prescribed medications, yet my pain reports consistently indicated low levels.
Here
I
was,
walking
around
the
day
after
major
surgery
where
they
had
removed
about
4
inches
of
my
colon.
I
had
32
staples,
hundreds
of
stitches,
a
stoma,
and
a
tube
running
up
my
nose
and
down
my
throat
to
remove
stomach
acid
that
was
collecting.
On
the
second
day,
I
managed
to
walk
over
8,000
steps.
Meditating
was
challenging
due
to
the
chaos
and
noise
of
the
hospital,
and
the
tube
in
my
nose
didn’t
help.
My
anchor
during
this
time
was
touch;
I
would
run
my
fingers
up
and
down
each
other
as
I
focused
on
the
sensations.
Focusing
on
my
breathing
was
not
an
option.
The
nurses
were
constantly
entertained
because
I
was
smiling,
laughing,
and
never
in
a
bad
or
depressed
mood.
I
was
always
up
and
walking
around.
The
surgeon
and
doctors
I
spoke
with
often
recommend
that
patients
get out of bed and walk around, but they had never seen anyone actually do it to the extent that I did.
Four
months
later,
I
had
to
return
for
another
surgery
to
reverse
my
stoma.
Since
they
needed
to
repair
my
colon,
I
had
a
section
of
my
small
intestine
sticking
out
of
my
abdomen
for
those
four
months,
allowing
me
to
pass
waste.
This
opening
was
approximately
2
inches
in
diameter,
which
helped
my
colon
heal.
During
the
reversal
surgery,
the
stoma
was
placed
back
inside
my
body,
and
the
area
was
sealed
up.
Once
again,
I
did
not
take
any
pain
medications
after
this
surgery,
relying
solely
on
meditation
and
optimism,
trusting
that
my
body
would
take
care
of
itself,
which
it
did.
Over 18000 steps were taken the day after this surgery while I was still in the hospital recovering ;-)
Two Large Incisional Hernias (May 2025)
About
eight
months
after
my
initial
surgery
for
cancer,
I
developed
two
large
incisional
hernias
(about
the
size
of
golf
balls)
directly
behind
the
original
incision.
This
required
me
to
schedule
another
surgery.
This
time,
the
doctors
cut
along
the
original
incision
scar,
removed
some
soft
tissue
and
scar
tissue,
and
repaired
the
two
hernias
using
a
large
mesh
screen.
The
procedure
resulted
in
32
more
staples
and
hundreds
of
stitches,
along
with
a
blood
drain.
Remarkably,
I
did
not
take
any
pain
medications after the surgery and managed to walk about 8,000 steps the day after.
One large Fatty Hernia’ (April 2026)
Eleven
months
later,
I
underwent
surgery
to
repair
a
third
hernia
that
had
developed
in
the
area
where
my
stoma
was
present
for
four
months.
The
surgical
team
removed
the
fatty
tissue
and
the
scar
tissue
that
had
formed
from
having
a
stoma,
and
they
repaired
the
hernia
by
inserting
a
mesh
screen.
This
resulted
in
a
five-inch
incision,
thirteen
staples,
an
unknown
number
of
internal
stitches,
and
a
blood
drain.
Once
again,
for
pain
management,
I
relied
solely
on
my
body's
natural
ability
to
heal
itself, supported by meditation. I have found meditation to be incredibly powerful.
How did I manage the pain
It
wasn’t
easy.
Everyone
kept
telling
me
that
if
I
was
in
pain,
“just
take
a
painkiller.”
Yes,
that
would
have
been
simpler,
and
I
wouldn’t
have
had
to
endure
the
pain,
but
I
wanted
to
rely
on
my
body’s
ability
to
heal
itself,
and
to
build
resilience
to
lesser
pain,
rather
than
depend
on
outside
intervention.
I
still
had
prescribed
pain
medication
quickly
accessible
if
needed,
but
I
intended
to
use
it
only
as
a
last resort, which never happened. I trust myself and my guides wholeheartedly.
Many
people
doubted
my
surgeries
until
I
showed
them
the
resulting
scars—“character
marks,”
as
I
call
them.
People
couldn’t
believe
how
I
could
be
smiling
and
happy
the
day
after
major
surgery,
or
how
I
managed
the
pain
through
meditation.
One
person
told
me
I
was
the
happiest
cancer
survivor
he had ever met. Yes, I had to show him the scars to prove it.
Meditation
greatly
helped
with
my
pain,
but
it
also
allowed
me
to
avoid
worry
and
stress.
It
helped
calm
my
chaotic
mind
and
let
me
focus
on
what
truly
mattered
at
that
time:
my
health.
I
understood
that
the
pain
was
just
a
small
part
of
me,
not
the
entirety
of
my
being.
I
realized
that
managing
the
effects
of
that
pain
would
create
a
calmer
self
and
allow
my
immune
system
to
do
what
it
was
designed to do: heal my body.
When
a
sudden
surge
of
pain
would
occur,
I
would
recognize
and
accept
that
experience.
I
would
tell
myself
things
like,
“Wow,
how
interesting,”
or
“Wow,
that
felt
different,”
and
with
curiosity,
I
would
ask myself, “Why did that feel different?” Then, I would explore that experience.
I
found
that
this
exploration
helped
me
handle
the
pain
with
great
resilience.
This
resilience
allows
me to manage milder pain—such as aches, sore spots, and headaches—more quickly and efficiently.
I
don’t
recommend
relying
solely
on
meditation
for
acute
pain
management,
as
pain
medications
can
numb
your
pain
quickly,
allowing
you
to
relax
more
effectively.
However,
I
do
recommend
using
mindfulness
meditation
alongside
your
prescribed
pain
medications
to
help
manage
some
of
the
side
effects that acute and chronic pain can create, such as stress, anxiety, and sleeplessness.